the last day of 25: an odd peace
today was my last day being 25, and while everything in my life is up in the air at this point, somehow I have an odd calm and I am very strangely not worried too much. this is pretty significant if I were to discuss the things going on right now. maybe for once I am actually trusting God to handle things.
it is hard to know for sure whether this attempt on moving forward in my spiritual life is going to “take.” I keep clicking that dumb button and it never seems to stay that way. there are big things going on in my life, my heart, my world. I am scared and excited for the potential and risks that I am considering.
this festering passion welled up in me needs to get out and I want it to, but there are so many things tied to it, so much that will happen if I pursue it. I know that even now I don’t quite grasp the depth and gravity of it, but I never will until it happens. mysterious ways indeed.
so, here’s to being 26 and all that it will bring. I think this might be the year of the rockstar, the ubertasticnessed-one cometh? how’s that for your chinese calendar? I don’t think that is an animal. oh well.
